Twitting around!

Hey! Hey! Hey! At last I’ve updated my twitter account! It’s been two months since my last tweet! i forgot my password and it pisses me that I can’t upload my photo that time because of some image size issues. Anyhoos… It’s okay now and I’m glad about it! hehehe.

Maybe I’m not…

(Another letter I’ve got from my email)

Why are these things happening? I thought after all those days we’ve fought, everything will turn out right! Maybe this is the result of not thinking over on things you need to do or say! I’ve tried my very best on saving this relationship but it seems like you don’t want it to go on any more.

You’re really that disappointed on me huh?! You never expected it to be like this. I’m not the one you expect me to be. Now you’re even ashamed that the “public would see us togther”. Furthermore, you just don’t want me near nor around you! you hate me that much?

Oh yeah! The truth of the matter is, you don’t love me. For so many time have I tell this to myself but just kept on ignoring it. Truly, reality bites! Grrr… Feels like I’m going crazy! I’ve got no one to turn to, no one to talk with.

Maybe, I’m not really meant to be here with you, maybe it’s just my will that put us together, maybe you didn’t even feel a thing for me right from the start, may be I just persuaded you in this kind of situation. i admit it, It’s all my fault and I am really very sorry.

Maybe if it wasn’t because of me, you are still enjoying your life, doing what you are supposed to do, doing what you inteded initially to do. As the saying goes ” Ang mabuting asawa galing sa Panginoon.” Could it be that… Maybe I’m not?

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** now listening to – I love you Goodbye – Celine Dion

Si Joe Cheng daw ang future ko! -ASTIG!-

Try niyo to guyz! Cool! Enjoy!

		I will marry Joe Cheng.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in China in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 7 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Blue Porche.
		I will spend my days as a Doctor, and live happily ever after.

Love or Bread? >>> It’s not the series! :)

This is NOT about the series of Ariel Lin and Joe Cheng! hehehe… We’ll, I just happen to realize (though I’ve known this for a long time! ) that even how much money you earned from working hard, if you’re not happy with your job or you feel that you “don’t belong” in the environment, everything is worthless! I mean, I don’t just need a job, but a CAREER (in fact, I want a definite carrer path)! It’s not all about the money but the sense of fulfillment you get everytime you finished your task and not like as if you’re a zombie-like creature following every single order of your BOSS!

Though in the beginning, I really don’t feel that I’m gonna be effective in doing some human resource functions but later on I found out that in doing so, I could help lots of people. So I wanted to continue with this track but in a company where I could utilize my skills and knowledge in this field not limiting my capacity with their unreasonable reasons! It’s not that I feel like I-know-everything-type but I would like to explore all the possiblities in this career and in return help others find their dream job.

I hope I could return to work soon! I feel lame just bumming around here! Hehehe… Ciao!

I’ve got LSS (Last Song Syndrome)! :)

Ito ung song na laging tumutugtog sa isip ko for these last three days! hehehe… for sure ‘di niyo naintindihan kasi mandarin siya! (Pero may hanyu translation naman eh ) next time ko na lang post ung English translation. Pero this was part of It Started with A Kiss OST. Ciao!!!

Yu Dao (Meet)

(Fang Xia Yan)

你身上專屬的陌生味道
是我確認你存在的目標
不用來回張望來知道
竟是我們相隔著一個街角

Ni shen shang zhuan shu de mo sheng wei dao
Shi wo que ren ni cun zai de mu biao
Bu yong lai hui zhang wang lai zhi dao
Jing shi wo men xiang ge zhe li ge jie jiao

這麼久了，我還是可以看到
感覺你到底對我多重要
不會被天黑天亮打擾
你每一次的溫柔我都想炫耀

Zhe me jiu le wo hai shi ke yi kan dao
Gan jue i dao di dui wo duo zhong yao
Bu hui bei tian hei tian liang da rao
Ni mei yi ci de wen rou wo dou xiang xuan yao

我們繞了這麼一圈才遇到
我比誰都更明白你的重要
這麼久了我就決定了
決定了你的手我握了不會放掉

Wo men rao le yi quan cai yu dao
Wo bi shui dou geng ming bai ni de zhong yao
Zhe me jiu le wo jiu jue ding le
Jue ding le ni de shou wo wo le bu hui fang diao

我們繞了這麼一圈才遇到
我答應自己不再庸人自擾
因为我有的我自己知道
只要你的肩膀永遠讓我靠

Wo men rao le yi quan cai yu dao
Wo da ying zhi ji bu zai yong ren zi rao
Ying wei Wo you de wo zi ji zhi dao
Zhi yao ni de jian bang yong yuan rang wo kao

If you want to listen to it, just copy the link: http://www.imeem.com/people/O9IFKW/playlist/h7CRXelV/iswak-tka-osts-music-playlist/

Just bumming around! :)

Its been 2 weeks of bumming around the four corners of our house! It feels a bit good, at least I don’t have to be pressured by those outside forces… hahaha… but then I miss working… honestly I feel some sense of confidence when I have a job. At least people wouldn’t think that I’m spending my husband’s money just for nothing even if I buy my new gadgets.

Well, I think I’ll just enjoy this feeling for a while so that when I already find a suitable job for me, I’m refreshed and prepared.

Ciao!

The “Hayden Cam” Scandal

It’s been a while now since this issue has been the topic of everybody’s discussion, from the news programs of two giant networks up to the streets; they are all talking about this Dr. Hayden Kho Jr. and Ms. Katrina Halili (and with some other women) Sex Video.

The Senate and Congress are now preparing for an inquiry regarding this matter and hopefully they could create and pass a law to prevent these types of scandals to ever happen again. The  Optical Media Board (OMB) is now conducting so many raids here and there in Manila area particularly Quiapo to confiscate that porn video, downloaded, recopied on a quite alarming quantities and sold to those who wants to see it (mind you, the price goes from 150 – 250 pesos just for that pirated copy alone! And sadly, there are those who are willing to waste their money just to have a copy of that trash!) National Bureau of Investigation (NBI) will be the one handling the investigation of the said scandal while Philippine Drug Enforcement Agency (PDEA) would probe the issue regarding “drug abuse” (I’ve heard that Dr. Kho Jr. admitted that he was in the influence of prohibited drugs while he records his videos with KH and that she was the one who allegedly introduce him to use these substance.)

Oh well! I guess I’m one of those who just hope that everything will already be patched up since there are a lot of people who are suffering and hurting from these current happenings especially the families of both camps. Hopefully, those who continue to reproduce, upload, and buy the video would stop to avoid further damage to DHK Jr. and KH since everybody was already working hand in hand to solve the case.

Moral lesson of the story?

1. For us women, never go for someone who is already committed. I don’t want to blame anybody on this but as a rule of thumb, if someone is already with somebody, you shouldn’t interfere with their relationship because if you do, in the end, it’ll be either you win or lose.
2. Never trust anyone, I mean we should have respect for ourselves, doing your private thing should be as intimate as it’s-just-between-you-and-me. Never allow your boyfriend, fiancé, friend or whoever to peek or take a shot on your privacy.
3. Give your love, trust, and your body to the worthy. There’s no need to explain this. I know you got my point.
4. For men, OMG! Learn to respect us! When women feel in love, we tend to give our all, but please, never use this just to feed your sexual fantasies!
5. You should also respect your selves! Like in Dr. Kho’s case, he is a doctor! My goodness! How can you entrust your life to someone who is not credible enough?

Hope this helps! Jia you!

1 LITRE OF TEARS… An Inspiring Story

I’ve already finished watching One Litre of Tears (1リットルの涙 Ichi rittoru no namida) through online streaming, it’s Philippine T.V. premier will  be tonight at GMA Channel 7. The Jdorama stars Erika Sawajiri and Nishikido Ryo. The story is based on a diary which is kept by a Japanese girl named Aya Kito (July 19, 1962 – May 23, 1988) who has been strucked by a progressive and incurable disease that affects the motor functions of the body, Spinocerebellar ataxia. Although the drama itself has fictitious scenarios and characters, it still depicts the struggles and hopes of Aya-chan while fighting against the disease.

This was indeed a very inspiring story that would make you cry from one episode to another. It’s like telling the viewers that no matter what happens in their lives and they would sometimes feel that it’s just to much to take, we should never lose hope and never give up! Everybody should give their best shot in everything that they do specially if we are so much capable because there are some who couldn’t do normal things but then they strive hard at it even if their physical abilities limits them.  It also points out the importance of a bond that ties the family together in times of hardships. Have I said too much? Anyhoo, here’s the synopsis of the story and if you just can’t wait to watch it, just copy the link below.

1 Litre of Tears

SYNOPSIS:

This beautifully moving drama is based on the real-life struggles of a 15-year-old girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease, but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25. The script is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled “One Litre of Tears” has sold over 1.1 million copies in Japan alone.

Fifteen year old Ikeuchi Aya was just a normal girl, soon to be high school student and daughter of a family who works at a shop that makes tofu. As time passed, unusual things started happening to Aya lately. She started falling down often and walks in a strange way. Her mother Shioka, takes Aya to see the doctor, and he informs Shioka that Aya has spinocerebellar degeneration – a terrible disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. How will Aya react when told about her disease? And how will Aya live from now on?

(Source: http://www.mysoju.com/1-litre-of-tears/)

MAIN CAST:

• Erika Sawajiri – Aya Ikeuchi

• Hiroko Yakushimaru – Shioka Ikeuchi (Aya’s mother)

• Ryō Nishikido – Haruto Asō (Aya’s later love interest and her lover)

• Takanori Jinnai – Mizuo Ikeuchi (Aya’s father)

• Riko Narumi – Ako Ikeuchi (Aya’s little sister)

• Naohito Fujiki – Hiroshi Mizuno (Doctor)

GUSTO KO SANA…

(A Letter I’ve got from email)

Itong mga nakaraang araw, wala na ‘kong ginawa kundi umiyak. Kasi naman ikaw, di kita maintindihan. Lagi kang galit sa kin, o kaya naman naiinis ka sa mga ginagawa ko. Lagi mo kong pinapalayo sayo. Alam ko naman na busy ka, maraming ginagawa dahil sa work mo, pero sana kahit konting panahon bigyan mo din naman ako. Gusto ko lang naman sana kung aalis ka, magpaalam ka man lang, magsabi ka kung saan ka pupunta, di naman siguro mahirap gawin yun.  Pag sa tuwing aalis ako nagpapaalam ako sayo, I even bid you a kiss, pero ikaw di mo yun ginagawa, di mo din sinasabi na mahal mo ko. Action speaks louder than words daw, pero hindi ko nararamdaman. Iniisip ko nga kaya lang tayo ganito dahil you feel na obligasyon mo ko. Alam ko naman na burden lang ako sayo, alam ko din na nahihirapan ka na sa kin, di man lang ako makatulong sayo. Sorry ha. Alam ko na super disappointed ka sa kin, kasi things don’t turn up the way you expect it.Pasensiya ka na kasi ganito lang ako. Sorry kung pabigat lang ako sayo. Pero sa totoo lang pinipilit ko naman na maging dapat sayo eh, kaya lang siguro hindi talaga ganun. Gusto ko lang naman maging malambing ka din kahit paminsan minsan, o kaya pagbigyan mo yung mga paglalambing ko sayo.Ang sabimo di ka lang talaga sweet, pero diba kung mahal mo yung isang tao, natural na lalabas yung sweetness? Di kaya di mo lang talaga ako mahal? Gusto ko lang naman sa gabi bago tayo matulog, magusap tayo kahit anong topic lang parang bonding moment natin, pero hindi mas gusto mo kaharap yung computer, minsan naman mas gusto mong kasama yung aso kesa sa kin, mas concern ka pa nga sa kanya eh, mas nagkecare ka sa aso kesa sa kin, nakakatawa diba? May mga ginagawa ka na mga bagay na para sa kin sobra na, pero sayo wala lang tinanong mo ba ako kung napapagod na ko? Ikaw alam ko pagod ka na sa kin. Kaya nga pinipili kong tumahimik e. Siguro ganito talaga ang nangyayari pag pinilit lang ang isang bagay. Am I too selfish to hope for these things?

Getting Mute!

It’s been a while, but I still feel this pain inside of me, tough I know that it was just a petty thing and I shouldn’t take it to heart, then again it was there, stabbing me, cutting my soul into pieces.

Sometimes I feel like going away, as far a I can go, to a place where no one recognize me, somewhere I don’t know anybody so I could start a new life, and from then on, forget everything about my past.

REGRETS? , yes, at the back of my mind, I know I do have regrets, in all that happened to me, and to the things that does not. SORROW? I’ve been through it since day one, I thought making some tough decisions and getting through it would make me feel happier and contented, but its not. ANGER? deep in me, I hate my self that’s why I guess, people hate me too. Nobody cares, even  the ones I thought who would. Nobody understand these things that I’m going through, these random thoughts in my mind. FEAR? I’m so afraid now because there’s no turning back. I’m such a weakling, I may not withstand it.

I guess, keeping my mouth shut would at least make the situation better. Keeping in silence would not make things worse. I just got to learn the art of keeping things and thoughts to my self. This way, I won’t be deeply hurt. I should start picking my self up but this time into someone stronger. How I wish I could be insensitive.